After day one of my stay here at IU North my husband started marking my days of incarceration on the dry erase board in my room. It's been our way of keeping track of how many days I had been here. On day 15, a nurse named Cynthia, stopped by to do my 2 hour blood sugar test, she noticed our marked incarceration days and asked me about them. Little did she know, that that day was a real breaking point for me. I was a mess. I truly felt like I was being punished for wanting this baby so much. I mean after all the failed fertility treatments, the ectopic, the scare of this high risk pregnancy and then 15 days of hospital bed rest, I was at a breaking point. I was mourning the easy pregnancy that I always wanted. A few minutes after she had left my room, Cynthia came back with a blue paper chain with 11 links, one for each day left until my c-section. She didn't like that I didn't have something to look forward to. So she taped the chain on my door and said that I needed to tear a link off each day I remained here. I don't think she realized just how much that little bit of thoughtfulness changed my outlook. I now have 3 links left, 3 days until we meet our son.
So after 26 days of being on lock down, I wish I could thank every nurse that has cared for me, taken the time to listen to me, held my hand and encouraged me to keep thinking positive. Everyone of them has been a small blessing. And anyone who gets their care, will be very lucky.
I know all about high risk pregnancies and was lucky to not be on hospital bed rest long. I will say prayers for an easy recovery and am so glad you are finally getting your baby boy!
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