Ok, yesterday was a hard day. And I’m probably going to share too much this morning, but here it is...
I lost my cool with the dietician who was hinting that it was my fault that I was diagnosed with Gestational diabetes. I mean really, she works at a hospital you’d think that she’d know that Gestational diabetes is the result of hormonal changes that occur in women during pregnancy. It’s not because of my eating habits or lack there of (which by the way for the most part I followed the rules). It was caused by nothing that I could control! Maybe I’m hungry and hormonal, but if you’re blaming me, get out, get out of my cell now before I stab you with my spork! At this point, what I really regret is not eating all the horrible things that I could’ve eaten in my first and second trimesters. Because now I sit here starving, with a limit of 35g, 45g, 45g carbs per meal (which is nothing, when you’re eating for 2) and absolutely no eating anything for 2 hours after each meal, because I get my blood sugars tested. But there is a light, I was told I could snack on protein after my 2 hour window and before my next meal (dietician could only recommend nuts and cheese). Do you know what nuts and cheese can do to your system after 12 days? It’s horrific and I won’t go into any more details. I hate this diet and that evil woman who tried to label me as a bad parent. I love this baby and would never do anything to harm him!
I came into IU Health happy and pregnant...now I find myself pregnant, depressed, hungry and on medicines to keep my body moving if you know what I mean. Ok, so I know the whine factor is a little high right now, but after 12 days I miss my husband, my home, my dogs and my carbs.
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